The News

       So, on 2011 I decided to be that person who read the news out of the newspaper and be all "oh i read the newspaper everyday". Surprisingly, I kept doing that until this day ! It's more like a daily thing for me now. This is not a new thing, since I can remember, both of my parents watched the news just like all the parents out there and I for some reason I have  always been interested in watching what is going in the world with them. There is always a point where my father would turn off the tv when i will start talking about politics, but nowadays he shushes me :\ 
Back to the newspaper thing, I have apps on my smartphone that have all the news I need. Same way you check your notifications, emails or FOOD , I check out the news. And just like any other thing this whole "oh i read the newspaper everyday" thing has pros and cons and since i am doing this for a while this is what i noticed.

GOOD SIDE: 
_ You will know A LOT, you are not alone on this planet and a lot of things are happening ,wars , civil rights cases and so on . This is good for me because that always made me feel that my problems can't be worse than some girl getting shot on her way to collage.
_ It keeps you buys! If i am going somewhere far ,these news will entertain me.
_ Ice breakers ! I usually break the ice with news and that is the only way i know how to break that ice professionally :\
  For Example : if i met someone for the first time and their country happend to suffer with some issues , i will start talking about that until PAAM the ice was just broken.BE AWARE that some people don't like taking about the news and over here in Saudi Arabia there aren't that much of political change or pretty much any political event that you can break the ice with when you meet new Saudis.
_ On twitter there are always new Hash tags about a cause or someone and whenever these hash tags pops on my timeline , I have a small clue of it and I like that. It is better than feeling lost in the conversation

Now to the bad side of everyday reading the news :
_ You will know A LOT , sometimes i know more than my mind can proses. It is not a great feeling to read that much of news especially when you read about those children who get killed for no reason , women getting rapped , wars criminal and so on 
_ Some stories will hunt you ! I will be doing something normal and all of the sudden i would remember a story i read a few months back. I would google it to see what is new with it and if nothing changed, it really brings me down. 
_ My freaking out moment ! I had sooo many of those moments this year. I really try my best to keep it low-key and pretty much to myself but all those amount of news i am reading were no help 
_ Family and Friends, I don't know if this one is bad or a good side about reading the news but having family members living far or even friends who live in their own country and they are under fire or revolutions ! It is not easy and the worse part is that you can't do that much. 

Now, of course  i will keep checking the news just like i check my twitter, whats app and all of those applications. And if you would like to do the same , put on mind that not all news are politics nor sad,there is an article for everything and everyone !

Back at high school, I met my best Egyptian friends and if we could we will talk politics all day long , not all of them of course! at one time we had a pure political breakfast only. GODDAM i am miss that.

Here are my favorite news apps 
Time - the guardian

Light | نور

On spring break, we went to Yemen ! This time was so different from our last trip here I blogged about it.
 Anyways, there is this cool old place that my father and I love to go there and get lost with the people. We went there along with a friend of the family. We stayed there over 5 hours, my father love checking out carpets, food and precious rocks, we both are big fan of precious rocks.

While he was just wondering I started to capture small clips. At first i was worried , thoughts like what if i get caught with my camera but surprisingly cameras were allowed and the people were nice enough to let me take pictures and shoot with my camera. Here is what i got .

Peace and Love !

So, Yesterday my friend lost her father. She loved him so much , she is her daddy's little girl. The only reason I am blogging about this is because this whole thing is new for me. I went to her house and it is been a while since the last time i saw her and as soon as i hugged her she cried her eyes out. I hate this ! there is nothing i can do to bring the man who always gave her his back. Surprisingly a hug won't do a shit other than bringing more tears. She knows that i will always be there for her but i am not her father.
I also hate re-discovering the fact that nothing last forever, realizing this again and again is boring, hurting and depressing " this is not new" .

My heart is aching real hard for all what is happening . I hate this too, this piece of organ is aching inside and i can't do something about it. Oh well !
  

karma is a bitch ?

Karma , karma , karma

kar·ma  : 

Destiny or fate, following as effect from cause.

I am a peaceful person and I will go over the board with my mother Teresa's ethics and no this is not a kind of "هياط"  . I will even pretend you are a nice person so I could just move on fast without holding any grudges. Sometime shit get real and those mother teresa's ethics are no help, at this point I'll still choose not to fight or cause drama but here is what I will do. I'll start killing people inside my mind , I might even take sometime to stop and imagine me killing someone . Now, this whole mental massacring is extreme and mad!. Killing them mentally will not make you feel any better "maybe for a few seconds" and as much as I want some people to be out of my system , I'll never wish them any harm like real HARM.

SO , WHAT WILL MAKE YOUR HEART COLD , HOW WILL YOU GET YOUR REVENGE ?

Just sit around , get all zen with yourself and enjoy the karma's work. It might take sometime, especially if you are one of those who are hapless but it will eventually come.

and since today didn't happen :

Scared

"Fear is such a weak emotion that's why I despise it
We scared of almost everything, afraid to even tell the truth
So scared of what you think of me, I'm scared of even telling you
Sometimes I'm like the only person I feel safe to tell it to
I'm locked inside a cell in me, I know that there's a jail in you
Consider this your bailing out, so take a breath, inhale a few"

Lupe Fiasco  

I must leave !

Laugh

Yes, we laugh !
And yes, we know that their are some people out there suffering , hustling , hungry , sick , ding , homeless , helpless and some are living in war zones.
But we still laugh, not for anything particular but for the sake of our souls.
We laugh because we are humans. 

Laughter is the tonic, the relief, the surcease for pain.
Charlie Chaplin

 
 
 

19

It's been 19 years old since I was born. At this moment I am present and it feels good.

I freaked out a little when I started to scope into my memory to find out what did I learn, did and seen from all these years.

Here is what I am sure of:

 I have secret friends, I met them 7 years ago and they still hang out in my brain. They helped me get through intermediate school and they are still helping and that I will never forget.

I have changed not that I asked for it, it just happened.

I also know that no matter how dark some days may seem eventually it will be alright.

I am a collection of pieces from different places , times and people .

I know nothing  about the future but that’s ok, I have a day to live anyway! Why care about the future?

The place I loved the most left me homeless, but it also taught me that home is where the heart is. A great person once told me “your bed is yours” and that’s enough for me.

From now on I will stand tall and work hard on the things that makes feel happy and good. Organizing my life, eat egg sandwiches and watch films.

Can’t forget about my family, they are my favorite people on earth.

Peace from a 19 soul to whoever is reading this.