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On spring break, we went to Yemen ! This time was so different from our last trip here I blogged about it.
 Anyways, there is this cool old place that my father and I love to go there and get lost with the people. We went there along with a friend of the family. We stayed there over 5 hours, my father love checking out carpets, food and precious rocks, we both are big fan of precious rocks.

While he was just wondering I started to capture small clips. At first i was worried , thoughts like what if i get caught with my camera but surprisingly cameras were allowed and the people were nice enough to let me take pictures and shoot with my camera. Here is what i got .

Peace and Love !

So, Yesterday my friend lost her father. She loved him so much , she is her daddy's little girl. The only reason I am blogging about this is because this whole thing is new for me. I went to her house and it is been a while since the last time i saw her and as soon as i hugged her she cried her eyes out. I hate this ! there is nothing i can do to bring the man who always gave her his back. Surprisingly a hug won't do a shit other than bringing more tears. She knows that i will always be there for her but i am not her father.
I also hate re-discovering the fact that nothing last forever, realizing this again and again is boring, hurting and depressing " this is not new" .

My heart is aching real hard for all what is happening . I hate this too, this piece of organ is aching inside and i can't do something about it. Oh well !
  

karma is a bitch ?

Karma , karma , karma

kar·ma  : 

Destiny or fate, following as effect from cause.

I am a peaceful person and I will go over the board with my mother Teresa's ethics and no this is not a kind of "هياط"  . I will even pretend you are a nice person so I could just move on fast without holding any grudges. Sometime shit get real and those mother teresa's ethics are no help, at this point I'll still choose not to fight or cause drama but here is what I will do. I'll start killing people inside my mind , I might even take sometime to stop and imagine me killing someone . Now, this whole mental massacring is extreme and mad!. Killing them mentally will not make you feel any better "maybe for a few seconds" and as much as I want some people to be out of my system , I'll never wish them any harm like real HARM.

SO , WHAT WILL MAKE YOUR HEART COLD , HOW WILL YOU GET YOUR REVENGE ?

Just sit around , get all zen with yourself and enjoy the karma's work. It might take sometime, especially if you are one of those who are hapless but it will eventually come.

and since today didn't happen :

Scared

"Fear is such a weak emotion that's why I despise it
We scared of almost everything, afraid to even tell the truth
So scared of what you think of me, I'm scared of even telling you
Sometimes I'm like the only person I feel safe to tell it to
I'm locked inside a cell in me, I know that there's a jail in you
Consider this your bailing out, so take a breath, inhale a few"

Lupe Fiasco  

I must leave !

Laugh

Yes, we laugh !
And yes, we know that their are some people out there suffering , hustling , hungry , sick , ding , homeless , helpless and some are living in war zones.
But we still laugh, not for anything particular but for the sake of our souls.
We laugh because we are humans. 

Laughter is the tonic, the relief, the surcease for pain.
Charlie Chaplin

 
 
 

19

It's been 19 years old since I was born. At this moment I am present and it feels good.

I freaked out a little when I started to scope into my memory to find out what did I learn, did and seen from all these years.

Here is what I am sure of:

 I have secret friends, I met them 7 years ago and they still hang out in my brain. They helped me get through intermediate school and they are still helping and that I will never forget.

I have changed not that I asked for it, it just happened.

I also know that no matter how dark some days may seem eventually it will be alright.

I am a collection of pieces from different places , times and people .

I know nothing  about the future but that’s ok, I have a day to live anyway! Why care about the future?

The place I loved the most left me homeless, but it also taught me that home is where the heart is. A great person once told me “your bed is yours” and that’s enough for me.

From now on I will stand tall and work hard on the things that makes feel happy and good. Organizing my life, eat egg sandwiches and watch films.

Can’t forget about my family, they are my favorite people on earth.

Peace from a 19 soul to whoever is reading this.

    

So,Today on my way to the hospital it felt like I am re-living the same moments of fear that I had 6 years ago when the doctor was about to remove the stitches on my toe ! surprisingly it's the same toe . Anyway to get the thoughts of pain out of my mind I started thinking of the things that I have done during those 6 years of my life like what did I do with my life , where am i now and AM I THE SAME PERSON OR NOT ?  aaaaand Of course I am not .
Not about to write the answers of those questions because the answers doesn't really matter and as my girl India Aria once said " sometimes is the question that matters".
We can't hide from change , not all change is bad , YEAH we had some bad days but we made it , some of the people that i met 6 years ago are now my close friends and moving on is the key .

And BTW this time it didn't hurt when the doctor removed the stitches, very glad !
here is a not so cute picture of my poor toe that :